Adjusting

We are all adjusting.  Adjusting well?  I don't know about that, but we are adjusting.  


I am adjusting to school and to getting out in the real world everyday instead of every other day or so.  I am learning that I have to leave no later than 7:30 to get to Chapel Hill, catch the bus, and make it to my first class on time.  For those of you that know me well, I do not do a great job of getting to places on time or even early.  When I am early, most people want to ask me what's wrong :)  So, knowing that I MUST be in class at a certain time is hard for me.  


I am adjusting to having to do homework and readings again.  I am adjusting to actually "thinking" and "critiquing" what I just read.  I don't always comprehend things well, and I believe that I come from a generation that was taught to read something and summarize it.  I don't remember much thinking and critiquing about articles.  If someone wrote an article, they were writing it to tell us something, not to make me guess what they were trying to say.  Yet, I feel like that is all I have done this week.  And . . . I don't like it.  Also, in one of my classes, I have to "create my own case study."  When I went through my undergrad, we read case studies, but they were REAL!  How do you make up a case study?  Doesn't that go against the purpose of a "case study?"  To study a specific case?!?!  Why would I want to make it up?  How do I even begin to make it up?!?!?  


Carlee is adjusting.  I'm not sure if this is a positive adjustment, but she's adjusting.  She has thrown tantrums each day for me.  She has been so cranky and so quick to cry if things don't go her way when I am around (which isn't much).  She doesn't want to go to bed (what kid does)?  She does whatever she can to manipulate me and get her way.  And, she's only two!  I dread the teenage years already!


Chuck is adjusting, too :)  As much as I'd love to say "I told you so," and "it's not easy staying at home with her, is it?", I'm glad that he is able to spend this time with her.  Even if he spends it watching things on TV that are way beyond Carlee.  Of course, how many times can we watch the same two Care Bears movies?!?!?!  They never get old for her, but they got old for us after the first 10 minutes!


It takes time to adjust.  That's what I keep telling myself.  


We will adjust.  


We will make it!  Together!